Depression
2009-03-03
Is one of most intriguing constructions of the mind. Regardless of its source it is very stable and often lethal. Why people choose to view a world in a hopeless manner is beyond my understanding. I never really was able to reach this point. No matter how deep I submerge into my despairs a sense of stability, well-being and goodness is always there, on fringes of my perception.
At the moment I tend to think that suicide (this topic arouse from recent readings on Wittgenstein’s family) is always an accident. Because the depression is so stable it allows exploration of its “space”, and where one walks one will inevitably trip, sooner if the surrounding area is unknown or simply dark. This trip can then be realized when a person is already between the bridge and the water. A psychedelic experience can, perhaps, be a real assisted “suicide”, a safe-net for an experience of death, an ultimate border–wall of any depression. When one experiences its own destruction the whole experiment is concluded, there is nothing else that can be done and a spiral of downfall should change its direction (Dante?).
Construct
2009-01-23
So, let’s think about the construction process for a moment. We can clearly classify people into two groups: those who can easily visualize images and those who can not. For example I can rarely do it with my eyes closed. But I know people who can do it with their eyes wide open. I should immediately direct your attention to Shulgin’s definition of a hallucination. When you see something and aware that it might not be real you are not hallucinating. There are many strange things that our mind produces and not all of them should be alarming or verbally connected to any psychological illnesses. Most of the people I know, however, can visualize with eyes closed and in a calm state of mind.
This (ancient term) hypnogogic imagery is a direct pathway to more interesting states of consciousness, like lucid dream or so called “out of body” experience. But that’s a subject of some other post. Question now is: how is that possible, that without any visual stimulation we can produce precise ( or completely irrelevant and phantasmic) representations of real objects. So no wonder there is a lot of bullshit literature about the “third eye”. I mean, it is only natural to live 5 hundred years ago and thing, that if you can see with your eyes closed, then you must have some special invisible eye. How else would you able to see? So many people are still stuck in this silliness, it gets on my nerves! Especially when I try to find any coherent thoughts or empirical evidences in a pile of rotten dogmatic anachronisms.
Welcome
2009-01-11
We look at the world around us as if it exist the way we see it without our involvement.